Life is too short to not to chase your dream....

Just returned from Germany after 20 days travelling, exploring the country and meeting friends. It was awesome experience. Germany has remained my all time favourite country and I had dreamed of exploring it one day and yes I did it. I have lot of things to say about my travelling in Germany but not now..... presently I am here to talk about something that is constantly on my mind since last few days.

             When I was in 12th standard I was passionate about joining army. You might not believe but some time I wake up in night because I had a dream in which my country calling me to join army, feeling they need me. But somehow...I didnt join the army... and I dont regret it today. When I took admission in Medical college, initially I was not happy as I never dreamed of being a doctor. Most probably I was fearing peoples, I didnt liked crowd and choose to be alone. When somebody asked me what I want to do after being a doctor, I use to say I ll join army as army doctor or I will join some research centre and will be scientist. Peoples were believing that I am crazy, and they were partially right, I was and I am.

         My first two years in Medical College was probably longest. I had lot of plan in mind, lot of will and want but didnt executed any of it except being in top 3 rankers. I have long story to explain my time and behaviour in first two years in medical college but not now sometime later. And I wont forget to mention that I really regret that time, although I am ripping the fruit of that time presently.
Oh.... gosh I went on wrong track, let me come back to point I want to talk about today. I will write my full undergrad story sometime later and I must write it as I am not proud of that days truly.

            Yeah, wish to be scientist and that unconsciously made me scientist. But in last few days I am finding it hard with my work and felt that my work is not fascinating or attracting me any more. I have got bored of this research work, there is no visible output presently, I might be working 12 hours a day but no fruit of it, I am sick of it now. Presently, I have opportunity to continue my studies as a PhD, my supervisor is trying hard to convince me to continue as a PhD and complete the whole project. My friends are saying I am crazy that I am saying big NO to her offer but Guys this work is not attracting me any more. In such situation I go crazy and I have only option here is to seek my best friend Olivia's help. Well, she understood the matter before I say anything. 

       She started with the sentence that I already heard many time but never really listened to it.. " When you think of giving up, just think once why did you hold so long". Yeah, it is important to find out why did I come whole way to do this work, what fascinated me to kick all clinical branches and be a scientists. Well, I can say, there were lots of things that attracted me to research but now I am not finding them now attractive.

       Take it easy, I am not finding even army attractive now, does it mean that I still join army because at some point of time I was liking it very much. Yes, with time your perception changes and later you changes. The next question from my friend was, okay what you want to do now? I want to do now whatever fascinates me. Well I want to join industry now, I want to business now. I ask her.. should I move on with my new dream now?

She replied: Life is too short to not to chase your dream....and not to be happy.

and I understood everything.